6 Aug
Why can’t I keep a good friendship with anyone?
Author: victerHi. I’m Andy, I’m almost 19 with a bitter life because I can’t do anything right for myself. Over the years it’s been tough. Haven’t had anyone to talk to because If I described how I felt in ever little detail I’d feel like a little bitch. My whole life I’ve always been over emotional. I’ve never been able to be tough, even when I tried, I still felt weak inside and out. It’s made most of my life miserable. Over the past few years. I’ve gotten more and more stressed that it’s made me look to thinks for easy relief. Masturbation was mainly the first thing. It’s gotten worse and worse my habit over the years because I don’t like smoking and I’m not old enough to buy my own drinks, so I look towards sexual activity. 9. 5 times out of 10, it’s with myself. Over this past year, it’s gotten to the point where it really needs to stop. I started smoking for a week than quit. I drink more, but that’s because I’m in college and I don’t drink often. After masturbating I feel like I did something wrong and that I would pay for it by feeling subconscienely everyone around me finds me less appealing. Now, whenever I try to have a relationship, my dick gets the better of me and I drive the women away. Same thing with making friends. Women see me as this great guy, which I try my best to be. But I have trouble looking at them as just friends and nothing more. My dick gets in the way of my brain. Being the P**sy that I am, I can never face facts and get my act together. It’s like I always cry for help, get it. But never find a cure. I tend to drive a lot of people away. I get lonely easily. This has made my life bitter. It used to be fun when I was younger than I am, but now no one ever wants to do much with me. I even tend to offer to invite myself to my friend’s house many a time. Today, I even called my best friend up, I’m talking a guy I’ve know since we were 5. He was at another friend of mine’s home, I offered to come over if I had transportation. He got awkward and we ended the call shortly after. Anyway, just to end this and not have you reading about my problems like the bitch that I am. I’m a horny 18 year old male, shy, can’t seem to break out of a shell, has trouble making friends and keeping friends, doesn’t know when to stop masturbating, can’t seem to enjoy life even in the simplest of times, and I get lonely very easily. Please, if I could even get an idea of how to fix who I am, make friends, male and female alike, and not be caught up trying to do everything all at once, that would be great. Thank you for reading this, just knowing that someone’s hearing my story makes me feel better. Feed back would be awesome. Thanks again.
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